Posted on Wednesday, August 17, 2011 at 8:01 PM

Apparently, some girls will only start considering you as someone more than just a good friend after you tell her how you feel....

ah, I wonder if that is true.

I mean, i really don't know right now

You seem to laugh at most of my jokes. Last wednesday we talked all about good old times last year and other stuff. You seemed quite happy :)

And... well just now while we were kicked out from class... well while we were doing the essays, you seem to look at me each time someone else says a funny joke. Does it mean anything, or was it just plain coincidence...?

I really wonder what you're thinking sometimes.

:(

Well I may be alittle late in posting this but i really need somewhere to vent all this out

Let's see.... the last time i was, well, 'in love' with you was in, what, november last year? haha

Yeah, i sorta cried over it. Coz you were professing your love for your then boyfriend on your blog haha.

Hmm lets fast forward that to february.

Ah. Sherene. Well, lets just say that was a misjudgment on my part. Me and her.... well we just aren't suited for each other coz we want 2 very different things. haha so no regrets yeah heh

Okay... come April. I remember. April 7th, I believe. The release of our group's pw results. And well, when you cried.... something inside me just.... well... It's sorta almost like a bitter sour taste within me. To tell the truth i'm not exactly concerned about getting a C for pw. But seeing you like that just... well... Made me realize how much i really care. Well, okay to tell the truth, i didn't exactly realize at that point in time. But something happened in the same month which made me put the pieces together and figure out the bloody wreck that's my head.

Hmm April 28. Thursday. You weren't in school that day. Well as soon as i realised, before i knew it, i was texting you, asking if you were okay. Heck, i don't even do that for my close friends. And yet, there i was, asking if you were okay. That's when i realised that all this while, i never truly got over you. In fact, i think i'm starting to care more about you right now. O.O

Ah, but at that time, i figured "Let it go, man. She's attached" Well, deep down i really wished that i could be that special someone for you. But well, if you were happy with another, there's nothing much i could do i guess. At least thats what i thought. But really, it stings a little each time i think about it.

But anyway... 17 may. Thats when everything changed. For me at least.

It was CME i believe. Ah it was some sorta lesson about relationships. And Mr Poh, being the nosy arse he is, is questioning everyone about their relationships. And when he asked you... Well i'm not sure what you said but he said something like "so it's non-existent now?"

That somehow triggered something within my head.

Well after a whirlwind of events....

Yeah, apparently, you broke up with that guy. And it was back in February or March. Wow.

That's when i thought "There is no way i'm letting this go just like that" That's when i realised how much i like you. How much in this i'm already in. I couldn't let a chance like this go just like that. I know, for a fact, that i will surely regret if i don't do anything. 2 days later, right before my surgery, I messaged you.

And.. well .... everything happened. And here we are now. I'm unsure of what you think of me, what those slight glances in between laughs mean.... Of course, i have a multitude of things i wna vent out, but my fingers are getting sorta tired. Lol.